PooBaoLao::LIFE

“life has its ups and downs. that guy i used to like… he rejected me… actually he liked someone else. it’s ok. that’s how life is. i encouraged him to take that chance with the other guy he liked. i hope he ends up happy. but he and i are buddies now. that’s cool.

Also a new guy appeared in my life right after… we’ve only know each other for less than a week now and we’ve been kind of inseparable. i didn’t know that he liked me as he do. he’s so cute and sweet. honestly… he can get any guy he wants. i’m just perry. what’s so great about me??? i dunno. but i like him very very much! “

stressing out to the max…

1. my computer broke!!!! dang it! :/

2. three more exams to go! [thankfully i'm graduating!]

3. can’t stop thinking about him. [sweetie...]

4. messy, messy, messy. too lazy to clean.

5. graduation party…. saturday… hurry up!!!! [i need the alcohol! ]

*…………enjoy life for the mean time…………*

“i recently found this new chinese guy. i really like him but he doesn’t want a serious relationship. i’m so flustered. his personality is wonderful, his visual is adorable but he doesn’t want a relationship or maybe he doesn’t want me. idk… but how could you kiss someone without meaning? i allowed him to kiss me given that i don’t kiss just anyone. the game of love is all too new and difficult for me. i’ve never had a boyfriend and never had a true love. i’m just so flustered.”

i’m totally back..

Last post was 10.04.2007. wow!!! that was a long time ago. mostly for the reason i’ve come back is… idk… i’ve occasionally been receiving comments over the past months. thanks! i really appreciate it! hopefully i stick to it. let’s do this!!!

~*..don’t over think it..*~

    i’m feeling much better. as one day passes by. but next week is when i will feel the stress and pressure. boy… i just can’t wait. yeah! not! i will do what i have started and will not turn my back on it. if you start something you gotta finish it. right? right! i hope this semester flies by fast cause i’m already feeling burnt out. seriously… i’m tired and i’m spending most of my time on campus. it’s just another day, it’s just another story. oh yeah… my dream. my dream of getting fired. it was so horrible that it kinda scared me. so does that make it a nightmare? i dunno. i never had a nightmare before. they say dreams come true. i hope this one doesn’t. ah!

*:…reflect your best self…:*

i wanna be more successful in life yet i don’t know what to do. i’m gonna graduate next year in the spring and i’m like all freaking out! crazy! i’m also worried about my classes. shit! so freaking hard!!! yikes! but like my friend said to me before… just don’t worry about the future just concentrated on now. how can i do that? i need to find a career. now! not a job… not a maybe… a life. a career that i will be satisfied with all my life! i’m so so stressed out about this topic. life is so brutal. ah! i gotta get through this. one step at a time.

ω….tough it out….ω

    “stress is terrible and also having too many thoughts. having too many thoughts about worries, fears and the future makes my brain hurt. i should really make things easier and try to organize my life. my life is so cluttered.”

daily routine…

1. work- boring. tired. nothing.

2. wanting- i had a chance to go clubbing but i didn’t. why didn’t i go??? [i don't really know]

3. family- my brother! what to do?!?! my mother. everything’s gonna be fine. it will.

4. movie night- yep! another movie. this time it was ‘rent’. oh yeah! it’s a broadway. i enjoyed it very much so. [smile]

Ò≥i want it≤Ó