PooBaoLao::LIFE

i wanna be more successful in life yet i don’t know what to do. i’m gonna graduate next year in the spring and i’m like all freaking out! crazy! i’m also worried about my classes. shit! so freaking hard!!! yikes! but like my friend said to me before… just don’t worry about the future just concentrated on now. how can i do that? i need to find a career. now! not a job… not a maybe… a life. a career that i will be satisfied with all my life! i’m so so stressed out about this topic. life is so brutal. ah! i gotta get through this. one step at a time.

ω….tough it out….ω

 life is complicated… so so complicated.

    dude… i don’t understand us. we totally have a good relationship as friends but why do we get into arguments so easily and hastily. i appreciate everything that she has done for me and i know she does likewise. to be honest we both are opposites. we get along yet we don’t. i just don’t know what to do. ah! it’s so strange to have this problematic shit happening. first of all… this is sort of our second argument. wait… i don’t think we even argued. i mean she did something and i did something back to her. then… we didn’t talk all during class. wow… after class she just waltz right out and i’m just like whatever. so i just went on my merry way. i didn’t care at all… i didn’t do anything wrong. so what… we’re probably gonna face this dilemma tomorrow at lunch. ouch! hopefully this doesn’t turn out like our first encounter. that would be bad! whatever.

i’m not an angel and she’s definitely not one neither. but we do have common ground and barriers but sometimes she goes a little further then i would. yet i’m on the path of corruption getting influenced by her ways of ‘evilness.’ yes i said it… but i still remain myself with trying to detach myself from what i don’t wanna become. when she ever provokes me i retailiate back with the same dirty games. that’s our relationship.

we’ve discussed that we can never live with each other. we are so so different. i’ve never had this situation where i deeply care for someone very much yet i also don’t care for them at all.