PooBaoLao::LIFE

listening to: krystal meyers- make some noise

currently: trying to get back in shape & update my blog

mood: mediocre

recommendations: read the manga “FAKE” because it’s good and i’m on vol. 6!

life:

it has been so long. last time i think i promised to update my blog but i guess it didn’t happen. i think i’m gonna try to update at least twice a week or so. keeping up with routine is hard. there are always new things interrupting it that are uncontrollable. when a routine is broken it is so hard to get back on track again. i hate it when that happens especially when the routine is beneficial like working out. blah!

so i’ve moved on to another guy again. dude. i’m such a whore but yet i’m still a virgin! forget all the other guys in the past but not entirely. i’ll keep all the good memories with me of course. this new guy i’m “hanging out with” aka dating is very nice. he is not bad looking, self-motivated and charming. we’ve been on 2 dates already. they all had good outcomes. i’m trying to take things slow so i don’t ruin anything. our next “hanging out” is on this saturday at 7 in the evening. the plans are to go over his apartment and he will cook dinner and we’ll rent a movie to watch. ok. these are all his plans, not mine. just to let you know. i don’t really want anything to happen maybe a little. it’s just that i wanna move slow. so i’m gonna move slow.

my grandma came to visit like a month ago. tomorrow is her last day! i’m like wow! it’s been a month already. it just flew by. i kind of feel guilty because i didn’t really spend a whole lot of time with her. but i’ve been busy with other things you know like… boys.

my daily happenings:

i had to wake up at 6:30am this morning and had to be by work at 8. luckily i went to bed at 11:30 last night yet with a couple of calls and texts disturbing me. so i totally worked the whole day. i got off work at 5:30. money… its good for you.

when i got home my cousin texted me. i totally called her back. no reply. she just texted back. she had no minutes… i think she did have minutes. she just didn’t want to waste them on me. she asked me to help her with her math homework. i totally forgot to text her back.

i ate some pizza yeah! like 2 slices. ah! i hate myself. i’m getting fat! then after that i went downstairs to my room and suddenly i found myself on my bed. then i drifted off to dreamland.

finally i woke up at 9! that’s totally bad. i didn’t accomplish anything today. i’m such a loser. :C

- – -i’m fine- – -

“being perfect… who is perfect? i dunno. but boy… i’m trying. pushing your own self is difficult. i want this. i want to change myself physically. by the end of this month… i’m gonna be in the best shape ever! promise! life is so ordinary… you have your personal issues while random things comes interfering. how do you separate personal issues with other external issues? they always overlap and can cause friction. when i’m doing my thing and getting myself together physically… i get the temptations from my friends to go out and chow down. i gotta get a handle on that. self-control!”

on this day…

o1. woke up really late. it was so sad. it was from last night from messing with my last post. took me forever to get it right. also my dad called me. didn’t pick up. cause i was still sleeping. i’ll call him tomorrow.

o2. work is blah! blah! and did i mention blah! i like it when we three close… fun! i need more hours. dude… and i can’t get any. so messed up. i really need to find a new job!

o3. second day in a row of jogging! yeah! but tomorrow i can’t jog! damn it! it’s ok. i’ll watch what i’ll eat.

o4. i hope we hang out tomorrow… tomorrow is gonna be a full day but i’ll make time for you.

<3…my type…<3

“i’m trying to get back to my daily routine of working out. i fell out of it when the missouri boys came. damn! but anyways i’m slowly getting back into things. i’m starting to exercise, sleep earlier, drink more green tea and water, keep things clean and getting things accomplished. yeah! you know when things are getting on track when you feel better. i feel better not great, but better. gotta keep on… do it to it.”

hey…

today was an ordinary day. i went to work. then i went jogging. jogging felt so good! anyhow. at work i have a friend there. she is so cool. i have fun with her. if she wasn’t there… man… i would be bored to death! well… i make her laugh a lot. but i make everyone laugh… and its mostly laughing at me. but that’s fine. i’m used to it. i have to admit though. i’m a blonde. really i am. but yeah… my friends invited me to come over to eat some tacos but i didn’t respond to them… i dunno why. i didn’t feel like it. blah! i ordered my graduation pictures… did it online and paid like $40 for them. eew. i cooked! its been like ages since i cooked. i cooked sausages. yummy!!! but yeah. i can’t believe he texted me. we didn’t text for long. i think he was probably working. hopefully we hang out this weekend. i so like him so much!

++(come play ball)++

    i’m feeling much better. as one day passes by. but next week is when i will feel the stress and pressure. boy… i just can’t wait. yeah! not! i will do what i have started and will not turn my back on it. if you start something you gotta finish it. right? right! i hope this semester flies by fast cause i’m already feeling burnt out. seriously… i’m tired and i’m spending most of my time on campus. it’s just another day, it’s just another story. oh yeah… my dream. my dream of getting fired. it was so horrible that it kinda scared me. so does that make it a nightmare? i dunno. i never had a nightmare before. they say dreams come true. i hope this one doesn’t. ah!

*:…reflect your best self…:*

i want it so badly it hurts. i mean… i wanna transform myself into the better me. i know i can do it… i’m just lazy and slacking off. i’m almost done with college. i need to get a grip on something and get it right. i need to stop being terrified and started taking action. damn…! what is wrong with me? come on… i promise now… i promise… right? right.

…tomorrow’s a new day…

♥my weapon♥

    “i need guidance for real. to think it gets easier when you get older and wiser. well… it surely doesn’t. life isn’t fair. i always remind myself about that. to move forward one must tread the path for themselves cause it surely won’t appear for you. take charge and be proactive and do it to it.”

my life…

1. morning- wow! i got up kinda late yet had the chance to eat some noodles before leaving to school. i’m so lucky. i mean i hardly ever eat in the morning. yes… i know that’s bad.

2. school- i hate tuesdays. ah!!! i have 3 classes in one day. i stay on campus all day long til 9. next semester i will moderate my time wisely. this must never happen again. [never!]

3. birthday- ok… i made a friend about maybe 2-3 weeks ago. so he called and invited me to his birthday celebration which includes dinner then clubbing. can’t make it to dinner cause of work but definitely i’m going clubbing. now i just need a friend to tag along. [anyone?!]

4. an hour- i didn’t expect the conversation to last an hour. but it did. it’s all good though. our relationship is growing into a pretty good friendship. that’s nice. [smile.]

ι•it’s all good•ι

    “i’m eating too many junk food. i’m trying to eat healthy now. [hopefully] i also wanna get into shape. i really need to manage time and start to jog again. i like jogging. i really do miss it. my goal is to better myself physical self. being physically healthy and attractive is a good thing.”

oh boy…

1. work- so today i tried to pull pranks on one of my co-workers. i copied the same pranks yesterday. i placed an ice cube down my friend’s back, then i put some black peppers in his drink. [haha] it worked! he also got me back though. he scared me by popping out of nowhere and then he shot me with a thick piece of paper with a rubber band. [ouch!] that shit stings.

2. have fun- my mother went out. she went to the lao’s temple. i hope she had fun. she could really use it.

3. movie night- went to watch movie at my friend’s house. we watched ‘hannibal rising.’ it was so-so.

±‡i’m right here‡±