PooBaoLao::LIFE

listening to: taylor swift- love story

lesson: i’m learning about responsibility

reading: totally captivated

watching: pushing daisies

life:

what is in store for me in the future?

a cute, asian guy always gets me. that’s my type or my desire. i want an asian guy non-feminine. no doubt. its so difficult, cause i don’t always put myself out there. i am not shy, it could be that i am afraid. when i’m with friends its better because i have their support. there are times when i wonder why i don’t have a boyfriend. some say you need to have self acceptance first then others will take notice. i’m still under the covers.

i need relieve! i feel like a slut sometimes. but i do know better. i’ve been waiting for so long for all my life so i can wait some more. but let me say it- i’m HORNY! where is my cute, asian boyfriend?

…kiss and caress…

“so i belong to this group called the “heffers”. they are my best, closest friends ever. today we initiated two new members. yeah! we are not a click or a gang. we are just a group, my group that i belong to. we do not discriminate either. we have friends of our own and we do hang out with other people. you know how people have a bff… well, i have a group of bffs. that’s how it is. we support, encourage, advise, protect, help, care and and have love for each other. i’ve been part of this group for two years now. it’s one of the best things that has happen to my life. heffers forever!”

what now?…

o1. hello- go ahead and borrow the hedge clipper.

o2. work- blah!

o3. chilling- yo! what’s up neighbor and na?!

o4. chilling x2- sup mofatt.. come on over.

o5. heffer lunch- welcome our two new members! manna wok picture! yeah! you brought the burn book!?!

o6. chilling x3- to heffer’s house we go. oh yeah… scrabble time. dude! i got second place!

o7. overall- i enjoyed my day. yeah!

<–i’m still hott–>

“i watched the movie “the love of siam” last night. it was excellent. i definitely recommend it! the overall theme of it is about LOVE. you can never have too much of it. you don’t have to be with someone to love them. just loving them is all it takes. that was what i learned from the movie. it made me realize that love is something special and can be shared in many forms. love… love… love… do i just love you or am i in love with you?”

ordinary day…

o1. woke up at 11:30… i’m so lazy. i stay up all night just browsing the internet.

o2. work… hello! how are you? how can i help you? ok… just a deposit. …thank you. you have a great day.

o3. home… i cleaned the basement living den! yeah! and the kitchen also… well a little.

o4. fishing… went fishing with my cuz and her “friend” at harrison park. just caught little blue gills.

o5. overall… today was good.

…รักแห่งสยาม…

“dude i feel like i should move out of the house but it just ain’t happening. i occasionally bring it up around my mother and she freaks out. she is like why do you wanna move out?… you know i bought this house for you… who’s gonna help me out??? to really think about it. i’m not ready at all. i’m not mentally, physically and financially prepared. what i really wanna do is move in with my uncle in oregon. i will consider that at the end of the summer if i haven’t found a better job by then. it’s not a good idea to just jump into things. you gotta thing about every little detail. but i’m ready for new experiences and a fresh start. you know!”

thoughts…

• i think about you too much sometimes mister LSI. but i still like you! i hope you like me!
• why am i getting so many guys that like me just now?!?!
• i’m done with college… should i continue school or find my career?
• when should i come out to my family??? what is wrong with me?
• i need to start sleeping early. i’m so lazy during the day.
• i need to get my life together. get it organized! get it together perry!

+++how low do you want it??+++

“life has its ups and downs. that guy i used to like… he rejected me… actually he liked someone else. it’s ok. that’s how life is. i encouraged him to take that chance with the other guy he liked. i hope he ends up happy. but he and i are buddies now. that’s cool.

Also a new guy appeared in my life right after… we’ve only know each other for less than a week now and we’ve been kind of inseparable. i didn’t know that he liked me as he do. he’s so cute and sweet. honestly… he can get any guy he wants. i’m just perry. what’s so great about me??? i dunno. but i like him very very much! “

stressing out to the max…

1. my computer broke!!!! dang it! :/

2. three more exams to go! [thankfully i'm graduating!]

3. can’t stop thinking about him. [sweetie...]

4. messy, messy, messy. too lazy to clean.

5. graduation party…. saturday… hurry up!!!! [i need the alcohol! ]

*…………enjoy life for the mean time…………*

“i recently found this new chinese guy. i really like him but he doesn’t want a serious relationship. i’m so flustered. his personality is wonderful, his visual is adorable but he doesn’t want a relationship or maybe he doesn’t want me. idk… but how could you kiss someone without meaning? i allowed him to kiss me given that i don’t kiss just anyone. the game of love is all too new and difficult for me. i’ve never had a boyfriend and never had a true love. i’m just so flustered.”

i’m totally back..

Last post was 10.04.2007. wow!!! that was a long time ago. mostly for the reason i’ve come back is… idk… i’ve occasionally been receiving comments over the past months. thanks! i really appreciate it! hopefully i stick to it. let’s do this!!!

~*..don’t over think it..*~