PooBaoLao::LIFE

listening to: ashanti- only you (the intro is sick!)

thought: hating work

mood: cool

lesson: don’t take things too seriously unless it goes out of hand, then take a stand

life:

apparently at work i feel as the guy that is out of place. i hate it when people judge me and have preconceived notions about me. dude! give me some respect like i do you. i’m gonna treat you how you treat me… that’s how it is and will be. so watch what you do!

seeing people from different scenes of you life is awkward. even though you may not personally know the person but know their face is weird. i see you! and i occasionally do the head bump. blah! so retarded. i guess its only natural to acknowledge people you know of even if you don’t know their name. funny.

my day:

i work everyday except sunday. i hate starting my day with work. my manager is getting on my nerves. she will not quit with her antics. please stop! seriously i want to quit! it’s only on my may-to do list for now. because today is friday i get off at 6. that’s so late i don’t have any time to do anything else afterwards. people! don’t work at the bank. its only good as a pre-career job. ok!

went to walmart and got my essentials. we have water to drink now. thanks to me! i need to go get the extra water jugs filled up before they all go out. it sucks to have to drink the refrigerator water. that’s nasty water.

i’ve been texting my friend all day until i stopped it. i just stopped texting back. just got tired. we just talked about our date tomorrow and what we are gonna be doing. i’m kinda nervous in a good way though. its whatever. wish me luck!

did my laundry. also folded my laundry. its still on the floor in my room. i will put them up probably tomorrow. its so neat. i use this cut-out paper board to use as a folding tool for my shirts. so that every time i fold my shirts they are all the same size. isn’t that cool? of course it is.

switching music to justin nozuka. his song ‘after tonight’ is getting to me. i’ve heard of it like many months ago. now i’ve got the song. its pretty. i like it. night.

((((-i’m ready-))))

“dude… i feel like i don’t belong anywhere. i feel lost emotionally and mentally and physically. i don’t wanna do anything but just stay home. when i do go out i feel anti-social. i don’t even try. i don’t feel happy when i’m with friends. is it me or is it them? maybe i’m just going through a phase. for the mean time i’m just gonna keep nonchalant. maybe i have a mental problem. i should get evaluated just in case… :X everyone needs space. right now i need space from everything… everything.”

come on…

woke up at 10 something this morning. got ready and went to work at 11.

work is always the same. should i come out anytime soon? i’m out to one co-worker why not the rest of them?

heffer dinner was at a buffet. china cafe. it was mediocre. not that good but fine. you know? you know. i just sat there, observed and listened only.

afterwards my friends went to the west towne mall. i didn’t feel like it so i went home. i’m becoming anti-social. yeah! i would usually go but i didn’t. i really don’t know why.

jogging is good for me. it is like mediation for me. i feel so good when i jog. i feel so much better after.

\\\_-come get some-_///

“being perfect… who is perfect? i dunno. but boy… i’m trying. pushing your own self is difficult. i want this. i want to change myself physically. by the end of this month… i’m gonna be in the best shape ever! promise! life is so ordinary… you have your personal issues while random things comes interfering. how do you separate personal issues with other external issues? they always overlap and can cause friction. when i’m doing my thing and getting myself together physically… i get the temptations from my friends to go out and chow down. i gotta get a handle on that. self-control!”

on this day…

o1. woke up really late. it was so sad. it was from last night from messing with my last post. took me forever to get it right. also my dad called me. didn’t pick up. cause i was still sleeping. i’ll call him tomorrow.

o2. work is blah! blah! and did i mention blah! i like it when we three close… fun! i need more hours. dude… and i can’t get any. so messed up. i really need to find a new job!

o3. second day in a row of jogging! yeah! but tomorrow i can’t jog! damn it! it’s ok. i’ll watch what i’ll eat.

o4. i hope we hang out tomorrow… tomorrow is gonna be a full day but i’ll make time for you.

<3…my type…<3