PooBaoLao::LIFE

listening to: david archuleta- crush

thinking about: my career path

watching: absolute boyfriend [veoh.com]

mood: tiresome

lesson: don’t give up

life:

i wonder sometimes about my family and what’s going to happen in the future. i wonder what my brother will grow up to become. i wonder if my mother will find happiness with that special someone. i wonder if our family will become close or become separated. i wonder if i will be whole or complete before i’m 25. i wonder if my mother and brother knows or even have a clue. i wonder what’s the purpose of my existence…

today:

1. work

2. took my brother out to pick out some prescription glasses. he picked an awesome pair.

3. watched the season premiere of antm

4. watch ‘absolute boyfriend’ tonight

5. sleep peacefully

*+*wanna do this all day*+*

“so i belong to this group called the “heffers”. they are my best, closest friends ever. today we initiated two new members. yeah! we are not a click or a gang. we are just a group, my group that i belong to. we do not discriminate either. we have friends of our own and we do hang out with other people. you know how people have a bff… well, i have a group of bffs. that’s how it is. we support, encourage, advise, protect, help, care and and have love for each other. i’ve been part of this group for two years now. it’s one of the best things that has happen to my life. heffers forever!”

what now?…

o1. hello- go ahead and borrow the hedge clipper.

o2. work- blah!

o3. chilling- yo! what’s up neighbor and na?!

o4. chilling x2- sup mofatt.. come on over.

o5. heffer lunch- welcome our two new members! manna wok picture! yeah! you brought the burn book!?!

o6. chilling x3- to heffer’s house we go. oh yeah… scrabble time. dude! i got second place!

o7. overall- i enjoyed my day. yeah!

<–i’m still hott–>

“i tell myself that’s just life. it’s the first time. they’re my first experiences, lessons i must learn from so i don’t repeat them. it’s better i learn now then later. rushing… is something i do. i can’t help it. i’m so impatient. things hit me so fast i just fall so deep into things i’m not really ready for. my heart has been aching so badly these passed days. i don’t like the feeling. it hurts while it is happy still. waiting… for the answer that will decide. at the end of it all i hope things work out with life filled of happiness in any form.”

random conversation…

you-why do you always worry about the future?

me-because it’s something to worry about.

you-why don’t you just live the present?

me-i do… but i’d like to know my future also.

you-live in the present so you can enjoy it more.

me-ok. i’ll try.

***cover all over me***