PooBaoLao::LIFE

“dude i feel like i should move out of the house but it just ain’t happening. i occasionally bring it up around my mother and she freaks out. she is like why do you wanna move out?… you know i bought this house for you… who’s gonna help me out??? to really think about it. i’m not ready at all. i’m not mentally, physically and financially prepared. what i really wanna do is move in with my uncle in oregon. i will consider that at the end of the summer if i haven’t found a better job by then. it’s not a good idea to just jump into things. you gotta thing about every little detail. but i’m ready for new experiences and a fresh start. you know!”

thoughts…

• i think about you too much sometimes mister LSI. but i still like you! i hope you like me!
• why am i getting so many guys that like me just now?!?!
• i’m done with college… should i continue school or find my career?
• when should i come out to my family??? what is wrong with me?
• i need to start sleeping early. i’m so lazy during the day.
• i need to get my life together. get it organized! get it together perry!

+++how low do you want it??+++

    i’m feeling much better. as one day passes by. but next week is when i will feel the stress and pressure. boy… i just can’t wait. yeah! not! i will do what i have started and will not turn my back on it. if you start something you gotta finish it. right? right! i hope this semester flies by fast cause i’m already feeling burnt out. seriously… i’m tired and i’m spending most of my time on campus. it’s just another day, it’s just another story. oh yeah… my dream. my dream of getting fired. it was so horrible that it kinda scared me. so does that make it a nightmare? i dunno. i never had a nightmare before. they say dreams come true. i hope this one doesn’t. ah!

*:…reflect your best self…:*

i wanna be more successful in life yet i don’t know what to do. i’m gonna graduate next year in the spring and i’m like all freaking out! crazy! i’m also worried about my classes. shit! so freaking hard!!! yikes! but like my friend said to me before… just don’t worry about the future just concentrated on now. how can i do that? i need to find a career. now! not a job… not a maybe… a life. a career that i will be satisfied with all my life! i’m so so stressed out about this topic. life is so brutal. ah! i gotta get through this. one step at a time.

ω….tough it out….ω