i initiated, yet i didn’t…
listening to: britney spears- amnesia
lesson: respect your parents
mood: mad right now, because my ipod just malfunctioned!!
life:
i think i kind of told this guy that i like him over facebook. he’s this cute, tall, lao guy. yummy. he’s gorgeous! i’ve seen him around a few times but have never met him. so i made the initiative to message him. then like last night i saw him. i didn’t even say anything to him. i was so scared and shy. yet my friend, knowing how she is, went up to him and just chatted with him. dude sometimes i hate her. whatever. ok i’m tired. good night.
…no peeking…
i want a boyfriend…
listening to: taylor swift- love story
lesson: i’m learning about responsibility
reading: totally captivated
watching: pushing daisies
life:
what is in store for me in the future?
a cute, asian guy always gets me. that’s my type or my desire. i want an asian guy non-feminine. no doubt. its so difficult, cause i don’t always put myself out there. i am not shy, it could be that i am afraid. when i’m with friends its better because i have their support. there are times when i wonder why i don’t have a boyfriend. some say you need to have self acceptance first then others will take notice. i’m still under the covers.
i need relieve! i feel like a slut sometimes. but i do know better. i’ve been waiting for so long for all my life so i can wait some more. but let me say it- i’m HORNY! where is my cute, asian boyfriend?
…kiss and caress…
Hello! My name is Benji…
listening to: Oh Jong Hyuk- Get Away
thought: i’m working all day tomorrow
mood: throat is sore & happy about benji
lesson: voting, does it matter? yes it does!
life:
how do i tell my mom?
my day:
oh yeah! i voted! did you? Barack won! yeah! dude. like there was even a doubt. i’m totally counting on him to restore this nation to its glory or close to it. we are definitely in a new generation. my generation is awesome!
dude! i did it! i purchased an ipod. yeah! yay me! the ipod touch generation 2 baby! hopefully i receive it before the end of this week. and engraved on the back, first line-”Hello! My name is Benji.” second line-”-Property of Perry Symychith-” yeah! yes, i named my ipod benji! it’s such a cute name. muah! good night!
spontaneous return…
listening to: britney spears- womanizer
thought: need a new job
mood: sweet
lesson: just state your opinions
life:
i’ve been feeling kinda horny lately. blah! what can i do? nothing. i just have to manage and take control. only if i had a boyfriend! where are you??? it’s ok. i find that i’m getting turned on a lot lately. i can’t believe i’m still in the v club. but i guess i’m proud of that though.
my day:
work is really getting to me. maybe i should hit the bed earlier. i’m starting to look restless. that is not good for me. ah! i feel like the fall guy at work. supervisor: “i need you to cover this shift and that shift is that ok? me: “ok… i guess. (i don’t have a choice anyways) hint word: ‘need‘ for heffer dinner we went to armarillo grill. i just had a texas chilly. i’m getting more fat! ah! blah! hate it! need to diet! yeah. then me and a friend went to chill at b&n for a while. we talked about weddings and wedding dresses. just for fun though, how gay is that for me.
fierce return
absolute boyfriend…
Critic:
so I watched this drama called ‘Absolute Boyfriend’. at first i thought it was gonna be an okay drama. i first heard about it when i stumbled upon the manga at b&n. it’s really an awesome drama. i fell in love with it. i love the beginning to the end. night is so sweet and cute. i promise he will start to grow on you. even though he’s just a robot. riiko is just silly and makes many funny faces and her smile is so sweet. soshi is great. it’s like you wanna root for him but it’s hard too. because you wanna root for night! who will riiko choose??? night or soshi??? i don’t know. well i do! but dude go watch it! now!!! dude… there’s only 11 episodes. i really recommend watching it. i’m gonna start reading the manga soon! and there’s only 6 volumes too!
Song:
Ayaka- Okaeri
Cast:
Mokomichi as Night Tenjo
Saki Aibu as Riiko Izawa
Hiro Mizushima as Soshi Asamoto
Synopsis:
Robot maker, Kronos Heaven, finally develops “Night Tenjo”, the perfect male humanoid programmed to be devoted and completely loyal to his lover. The company chooses temp worker Izawa Riko to take part in a 5-day free trial. At first, Riko only sees Night as a household appliance. But when she finds out how deep Night’s devotion to herself is, Riko finds herself falling in love with him. Joining the love triangle is Asamoto Soshi, a distinguished young executive at her company who has feelings for her.
so what…
listening to: david archuleta- crush
thinking about: my career path
watching: absolute boyfriend [veoh.com]
mood: tiresome
lesson: don’t give up
life:
i wonder sometimes about my family and what’s going to happen in the future. i wonder what my brother will grow up to become. i wonder if my mother will find happiness with that special someone. i wonder if our family will become close or become separated. i wonder if i will be whole or complete before i’m 25. i wonder if my mother and brother knows or even have a clue. i wonder what’s the purpose of my existence…
today:
1. work
2. took my brother out to pick out some prescription glasses. he picked an awesome pair.
3. watched the season premiere of antm
4. watch ‘absolute boyfriend’ tonight
5. sleep peacefully
*+*wanna do this all day*+*
gradual changes…
listening to: ashanti- only you (the intro is sick!)
thought: hating work
mood: cool
lesson: don’t take things too seriously unless it goes out of hand, then take a stand
life:
apparently at work i feel as the guy that is out of place. i hate it when people judge me and have preconceived notions about me. dude! give me some respect like i do you. i’m gonna treat you how you treat me… that’s how it is and will be. so watch what you do!
seeing people from different scenes of you life is awkward. even though you may not personally know the person but know their face is weird. i see you! and i occasionally do the head bump. blah! so retarded. i guess its only natural to acknowledge people you know of even if you don’t know their name. funny.
my day:
i work everyday except sunday. i hate starting my day with work. my manager is getting on my nerves. she will not quit with her antics. please stop! seriously i want to quit! it’s only on my may-to do list for now. because today is friday i get off at 6. that’s so late i don’t have any time to do anything else afterwards. people! don’t work at the bank. its only good as a pre-career job. ok!
went to walmart and got my essentials. we have water to drink now. thanks to me! i need to go get the extra water jugs filled up before they all go out. it sucks to have to drink the refrigerator water. that’s nasty water.
i’ve been texting my friend all day until i stopped it. i just stopped texting back. just got tired. we just talked about our date tomorrow and what we are gonna be doing. i’m kinda nervous in a good way though. its whatever. wish me luck!
did my laundry. also folded my laundry. its still on the floor in my room. i will put them up probably tomorrow. its so neat. i use this cut-out paper board to use as a folding tool for my shirts. so that every time i fold my shirts they are all the same size. isn’t that cool? of course it is.
switching music to justin nozuka. his song ‘after tonight’ is getting to me. i’ve heard of it like many months ago. now i’ve got the song. its pretty. i like it. night.
((((-i’m ready-))))
sai bai dee (meaning hello in laos)…
listening to: krystal meyers- make some noise
currently: trying to get back in shape & update my blog
mood: mediocre
recommendations: read the manga “FAKE” because it’s good and i’m on vol. 6!
life:
it has been so long. last time i think i promised to update my blog but i guess it didn’t happen. i think i’m gonna try to update at least twice a week or so. keeping up with routine is hard. there are always new things interrupting it that are uncontrollable. when a routine is broken it is so hard to get back on track again. i hate it when that happens especially when the routine is beneficial like working out. blah!
so i’ve moved on to another guy again. dude. i’m such a whore but yet i’m still a virgin!
forget all the other guys in the past but not entirely. i’ll keep all the good memories with me of course. this new guy i’m “hanging out with” aka dating is very nice. he is not bad looking, self-motivated and charming. we’ve been on 2 dates already. they all had good outcomes. i’m trying to take things slow so i don’t ruin anything. our next “hanging out” is on this saturday at 7 in the evening. the plans are to go over his apartment and he will cook dinner and we’ll rent a movie to watch. ok. these are all his plans, not mine. just to let you know. i don’t really want anything to happen maybe a little. it’s just that i wanna move slow. so i’m gonna move slow.
my grandma came to visit like a month ago. tomorrow is her last day! i’m like wow! it’s been a month already. it just flew by. i kind of feel guilty because i didn’t really spend a whole lot of time with her. but i’ve been busy with other things you know like… boys.
my daily happenings:
i had to wake up at 6:30am this morning and had to be by work at 8. luckily i went to bed at 11:30 last night yet with a couple of calls and texts disturbing me. so i totally worked the whole day. i got off work at 5:30. money… its good for you.
when i got home my cousin texted me. i totally called her back. no reply. she just texted back. she had no minutes… i think she did have minutes. she just didn’t want to waste them on me. she asked me to help her with her math homework. i totally forgot to text her back.
i ate some pizza yeah! like 2 slices. ah! i hate myself. i’m getting fat! then after that i went downstairs to my room and suddenly i found myself on my bed. then i drifted off to dreamland.
finally i woke up at 9! that’s totally bad. i didn’t accomplish anything today. i’m such a loser. :C
- – -i’m fine- – -
don’t misunderstand…
listening to: lady gaga ft. colby o’donis: just dance
currently: watching abdc auditions
mood: mellow
recommendations: watch “my lovely weekend” (korean)
“i aspire to become more than i am. but dude i don’t understand anything at all. look! if someone is explaining something… you gotta pay attention and listen and absorb all that information. i don’t have the ability to concentrate and absorb all that information. so like i’m in a meeting and just watching. am i really listening?… maybe some bits and pieces. all that i care about is that it looks like i’m paying attention. does that really help me? no! maybe i gotta find another job that interest me more. for the time being… i’m gotta do whatever it takes to make myself look good. muahahahaha…”
woke up with two miss phone calls that i didn’t know. didn’t bother to call them back. also i had three texts. my mornings are waking up to my phone and not my alarm clock.
went to a meeting for work… NEO. yeah. that was so boring. it took half of my work day. but yeah… don’t watch the “happening” cuz my co-worker said it sucked!
my little nap was great. i ignored a phone call from my sisterstep (not my stepsister yet).
jogging was great! four laps! dude! four! saw an asian guy. he was ok. not much of an eye candy though.
sorry guys i didn’t feel like hanging out. have fun at ant’s house and enjoy that gumbo.
<<<kiss the cook>>>
